So.... after I found out Michael Jackson died, I watched all the music videos I own, and got out all my MJ stuff, and made sort of a mini shrine out of the bar in my kitchen.
When I first heard that Michael died... I cried for like, 5 seconds? then I sort of went into shock. Now its finally hitting home.
I feel absolutely miserable.... I mean, I know that he was having lots of troubles... and that he's in a way better place now... but.... It still makes me really sad.

Even though It was always really unlikely that I'd ever get to see him in concert or meet him or anything.... now I know its completely impossible.

His music has been the one consistant thing in my life since I was a kid.... I can mark growing up by that music. What songs I was listening too when....

I don't even feel like looking at anyones Deviations... or replying to comments.... I just.... kind of want to curl up in a ball and cry.

Ive started doodling a little fan/memorial picture thing.... and its helping, but I'm still really REALLY sad! does anybody else care about his passing?
I mean, I know people my age, who don't even know who he is... its bizarre....


People have been saying/writing RIP all day... and I don't think thats appropriate.
Michael has been in ill health for awhile... and I bet he doesnt want to be resting. he was always such a high energy kind of person, I bet hes doing something amazing, and is full of life again.

Michael, You will be missed.

May your memory ever live on, to enthrall generations to come.
The King of Pop,
The true Peter Pan,
Michael Jackson.

You saved my life, and countless others.

M. Hammer